When I worked as a nanny in Canada, one of the things that I very much enjoyed doing, was taking the kids to the fire department. The children loved to have a tour of the firetruck, see the firehouse, complete with the pole that they slide down in the event of an emergency. We would get our pictures taken with the firemen and of the children sitting in the big red firetruck.
And for me...it was always the thrill of seeing the hot men in uniform. If I was really lucky, I would get to catch a sneak peek at the big, hunky firemen playing basketball with their shirts off. It was well known that firemen were great cooks as well. I often saw a team of them at the local Safeway, buying ingredients for the nights dinner. Once, I mentioned to the Captain of the squad near my house, how impressed I was that Firemen were encouraged to develop their culinary skills. He promptly invited me for dinner anytime I wanted.
I never took him up on the offer, but I always knew that it was there and was something I could brag about to my girlfriends. "I got invited for dinner at the Firehall! Anyone want to come???"
Here in Israel, life is completely different. The thrill of the day for children is not a firetruck or a police car. We live in a small community in the West Bank and rarely, if ever, see either of those. But we do see an awful lot of the Army, with their huge Hummers. That is the big thrill for the children.
"Look kids! A Hummer!"
Sometimes, the Army comes to do drills in our community. So we will see many a young soldier, with their big guns, jumping out of their army jeeps and Hummers, ready to do a drill. When I lived in my old apartment, there were a bunch of houses that were in the process of being built, and the boys came to do a drill. I really wanted to volunteer to be Fatma, the female suicide bomber, because it just looked like fun, playing bad guys and good guys. It looked like a good way to get some stress and anger out. And really, who doesn't like playing cops and robbers at any age?
The best, though, is in the summer, when they come to do drills and they all take their shirts off, because the heat is unbearable. Wearing only their saggy army pants, with their nice young, flat boyish stomachs. One can almost contemplate a Demi Moore type relationship.
Of course, the best I can do is say to my little girls "Look! Soldiers!!!!"
Unfortunately, they aren't so interested. At least not yet. In about 12 years, I know it will be a different story, but for the moment, I will just have to work on having a little boy, so we can share in the delight of soldiers...
The Desert
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
How I spent my Chanukah holiday
I am sick.
Again.
This is twice in the last six weeks that I have been truly ill.
It all started almost two weeks ago, when I developed a small cold. I always think that a cold for me, however, is a sinus infection. But it was affecting my voice, so I knew it was a little more serious. But I thought, hey, it's just a cold. It will pass.
I finished up my work week before the holidays and the cold still wasn't going away. I was really looking forward to the holiday, as I had a lot of things that I wanted to do, such as reorganize certain areas of the house, really clean and spend some time with my kids.
I woke up Sunday with a terrible sore throat.
"OK," I thought. "I have a sore throat. It will pass. But I should maybe go to the doctor."
Living on a yishuv means that going to the doctor is no easy decision. Fortunately I belong to a health care company who has an office on my yishuv. However, the doctor is only in every other day and at strange times, which I can never remember. And sometimes the hours change without me being aware of it. This was the case on Sunday. David was in Haifa and I was alone with the kids, well, my father is here, but he is also really sick. I sent Shmuel to check the office hours of the medical clinic and he came home to report that it was now. I had no energy to bundle up the kids and take them with me to the doctor, which meant that I had to wait until Tuesday morning.
"It's okay," I thought. "I am sure the sore throat will pass."
It didn't. And David had some things to do outside of the house, which meant that I had to be responsible for the children. Yesterday afternoon, he went to Jerusalem and I asked him to hurry home, because I really couldn't do it alone. I was exhausted and in pain.
So this morning, I went to visit my doctor, who informed me that I had a throat infection, probably strep, as my older daughter, Chaya, had this last week.
"Do you want a doctor's note for work?" he asked.
"I would like a doctor's note for my husband, informing him that his wife is sick and that she needs to rest." I said.
He didn't seem to quite understand what it was that I wanted and by then, the funny had disappeared.
Fortunately, David took the kids with him to Jerusalem this morning and I finally had some time to rest.
But guess what? I hate resting.
Which is strange, because I keep saying that my dream holiday would be to go to a hotel for three days, alone, with a bunch of books and watch TV, eat, sleep and read.
I have had the day to do exactly that. And I hate it. I was so bored. I made pesto for myself, did a bunch of loads of laundry, even folding two of the loads and putting them away. I did the dishes. I swept the floor. AND I read, watched TV. But no sleeping. Because I can no longer sleep during the day. Which really annoys me. I just can't.
When I heard the little voices downstairs at 2 pm, I have to admit, that I was happy. I don't like the quiet anymore, for too long. I am just not used to it anymore. It kind of freaks me out.
I remember a long time ago, when a mentor of mine pointed out that I didn't like to be alone with myself, I was in shock.
"What do you mean?" I asked, "I am often alone with myself!"
"No," she said. "You're not. You go home and you are alone, but then you turn on the TV or talk on the phone, or go on the internet. You are not alone with yourself, you are ENTERTAINING yourself."
I was so annoyed. It was one more thing to work on, learning how to enjoy my own company. A few years later, I went through a bad depression and would lie on my bed and not move. The good thing that came out of that, was that I didn't feel the need any longer, to entertain myself.
I could lie for hours on my bed. Staring at the walls, contemplating my life, where I was and where I wanted to be.
I could take an hour long bath and just lie there and enjoy soaking in the heat of the water.
I took a bath tonight and after about 10 minutes, I got bored.
I forced myself to stay in the bath, because the doctor told me that steam was good for me. But I didn't enjoy it, like I used to.
It's almost like I now have ADD. I can't focus on one thing for too long. I need constant change, constant going.
I guess that is what happened after children. I now have constant companions and I don't know how to just be alone with me anymore. I always want to be distracted by something and I can always create a distraction. Even if it means cleaning the floor with glands the size of plums. Which is what I am going to do tomorrow, because I know the penicillin will have kicked in by then and I should feel right as rain.
Plus, I don't think my "Boss" will give me more than a day off. Especially because he is at the beginning of an illness too. We have to take turns being sick, this being sick at the same time, just doesn't cut it. Next time, I will make sure to co-ordinate with him.
Again.
This is twice in the last six weeks that I have been truly ill.
It all started almost two weeks ago, when I developed a small cold. I always think that a cold for me, however, is a sinus infection. But it was affecting my voice, so I knew it was a little more serious. But I thought, hey, it's just a cold. It will pass.
I finished up my work week before the holidays and the cold still wasn't going away. I was really looking forward to the holiday, as I had a lot of things that I wanted to do, such as reorganize certain areas of the house, really clean and spend some time with my kids.
I woke up Sunday with a terrible sore throat.
"OK," I thought. "I have a sore throat. It will pass. But I should maybe go to the doctor."
Living on a yishuv means that going to the doctor is no easy decision. Fortunately I belong to a health care company who has an office on my yishuv. However, the doctor is only in every other day and at strange times, which I can never remember. And sometimes the hours change without me being aware of it. This was the case on Sunday. David was in Haifa and I was alone with the kids, well, my father is here, but he is also really sick. I sent Shmuel to check the office hours of the medical clinic and he came home to report that it was now. I had no energy to bundle up the kids and take them with me to the doctor, which meant that I had to wait until Tuesday morning.
"It's okay," I thought. "I am sure the sore throat will pass."
It didn't. And David had some things to do outside of the house, which meant that I had to be responsible for the children. Yesterday afternoon, he went to Jerusalem and I asked him to hurry home, because I really couldn't do it alone. I was exhausted and in pain.
So this morning, I went to visit my doctor, who informed me that I had a throat infection, probably strep, as my older daughter, Chaya, had this last week.
"Do you want a doctor's note for work?" he asked.
"I would like a doctor's note for my husband, informing him that his wife is sick and that she needs to rest." I said.
He didn't seem to quite understand what it was that I wanted and by then, the funny had disappeared.
Fortunately, David took the kids with him to Jerusalem this morning and I finally had some time to rest.
But guess what? I hate resting.
Which is strange, because I keep saying that my dream holiday would be to go to a hotel for three days, alone, with a bunch of books and watch TV, eat, sleep and read.
I have had the day to do exactly that. And I hate it. I was so bored. I made pesto for myself, did a bunch of loads of laundry, even folding two of the loads and putting them away. I did the dishes. I swept the floor. AND I read, watched TV. But no sleeping. Because I can no longer sleep during the day. Which really annoys me. I just can't.
When I heard the little voices downstairs at 2 pm, I have to admit, that I was happy. I don't like the quiet anymore, for too long. I am just not used to it anymore. It kind of freaks me out.
I remember a long time ago, when a mentor of mine pointed out that I didn't like to be alone with myself, I was in shock.
"What do you mean?" I asked, "I am often alone with myself!"
"No," she said. "You're not. You go home and you are alone, but then you turn on the TV or talk on the phone, or go on the internet. You are not alone with yourself, you are ENTERTAINING yourself."
I was so annoyed. It was one more thing to work on, learning how to enjoy my own company. A few years later, I went through a bad depression and would lie on my bed and not move. The good thing that came out of that, was that I didn't feel the need any longer, to entertain myself.
I could lie for hours on my bed. Staring at the walls, contemplating my life, where I was and where I wanted to be.
I could take an hour long bath and just lie there and enjoy soaking in the heat of the water.
I took a bath tonight and after about 10 minutes, I got bored.
I forced myself to stay in the bath, because the doctor told me that steam was good for me. But I didn't enjoy it, like I used to.
It's almost like I now have ADD. I can't focus on one thing for too long. I need constant change, constant going.
I guess that is what happened after children. I now have constant companions and I don't know how to just be alone with me anymore. I always want to be distracted by something and I can always create a distraction. Even if it means cleaning the floor with glands the size of plums. Which is what I am going to do tomorrow, because I know the penicillin will have kicked in by then and I should feel right as rain.
Plus, I don't think my "Boss" will give me more than a day off. Especially because he is at the beginning of an illness too. We have to take turns being sick, this being sick at the same time, just doesn't cut it. Next time, I will make sure to co-ordinate with him.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
My Brain no longer functions. I need some Gingko Biloba.
I made a huge mistake today. But let me start at the beginning.
This morning, my husband set off, fairly early in the morning, to fetch my father at the airport. The airport is about an hour or so drive from here, depending on traffic. He had gone early this AM to meet with a friend of his who was actually arriving today from South Africa. They met briefly and then my husband settled down to wait for my father, who was due to arrive at 11:15 am. At about 12:30, I phoned my husband, to ask if my father had come out yet.
"Nope, not yet" was the answer.
At 1 pm, my husband called me back and asked, "Are you sure he got on the plane?"
I answered indignantly "OF COURSE HE DID!!! If he didn't, he would have called."
We hung up the phone. 5 minutes later, I called back. "Isn't there someone you can ask, what is going on?"
Apparently, the only way you can find out, is to call the airport. Which is stupid, since my husband was actually AT THE AIRPORT. Why should he have had to CALL THE AIRPORT. But...this is Israel...
So, I quickly looked up the number on the internet and with my mind full of thoughts, like "Oh my G-d, for some reason, they have pulled my father to the side and are now searching him. And I know my Dad. After a long journey like this one, he will be overtired and grumpy and probably not very nice to the authorities, which might make it worse." I had thoughts of having to bail him out of jail. My next thought was that perhaps his Israeli passport wasn't up to date and they were giving him a hard time because of that.
I got through to someone at the airport who assured me that all passengers from the flight I had quoted had left the baggage area and made it through customs and immigration. Then she said "Are you sure he is coming today?"
Well...the NERVE!!! Like I don't know how to read an itinerary...
"OF COURSE HE IS COMING TODAY. I HAVE THE ITINERARY IN FRONT OF ME AND IT SAYS NOVEMBER 28, 2010. THAT IS TODAY, AM I CORRECT???" I said with a voice slightly raised, like a good Israeli!!!
"Well, you can call the Interior Ministry at the airport and see if there has been a security or immigration issue."
By this time, I had to go and pick up my daughter from preschool, so I hung up the phone, furious with this idiot of a woman who apparently has no idea who I am.
But her suggestion that I had the wrong day left a nagging feeling inside my head. What if she was right?
I got home and checked the itinerary. This is what it looks like:
EDMONTON/INTL TORONTO AIR CANADA 106 V 28 NOV 10 800A 135P OK
ARRIVES TERMINAL -1
NONSTOP FOOD TO PURCHASE FLYING TIME- 3:35
EQUIPMENT-E90
FREQUENT FLYER -AC 111239513 SEAT-16D
TORONTO TEL AVIV AIR CANADA 84 V 28 NOV 10 520P 1115A OKDEPARTS TERMINAL -1
ARRIVES TERMINAL -3
NONSTOP BREAKFAST-MEAL ARRIVE-29 NOV FLYING TIME-10:55
EQUIPMENT-BOEING 767-300
Now check out the first line of the second paragraph. That's the only part I read. Because the only part that was important to me was when he was arriving. It says 28 Nov 10 520 P 1115A. Which means arrival is at 11:15 am. I didn't bother to read the whole thing, which would have saved my husband a lot of trouble. And money for that matter. There is absolutely NO WAY that anyone can leave the Prairies in Canada at 8 am Canadian time and be in Israel at 11:15 our time ON THE SAME DAY!!!!
Sheepishly, I called my husband, told him my mistake and gave him my permission to come home.
NOW! Here's the amazing part. Even though he has to do this all over tomorrow morning, he came home, totally not even furious with me. Then, he even drove me and the girls to Efrat, some 20 minutes away, for pizza and then grocery shopping. Without a cross word or complaint.
I think my husband is a Tzaddik. Or, for you non Hebrew speakers - a Saint.
Perhaps tomorrow, my Father will actually be here. Who knows? Maybe he's not coming till Thursday!
This morning, my husband set off, fairly early in the morning, to fetch my father at the airport. The airport is about an hour or so drive from here, depending on traffic. He had gone early this AM to meet with a friend of his who was actually arriving today from South Africa. They met briefly and then my husband settled down to wait for my father, who was due to arrive at 11:15 am. At about 12:30, I phoned my husband, to ask if my father had come out yet.
"Nope, not yet" was the answer.
At 1 pm, my husband called me back and asked, "Are you sure he got on the plane?"
I answered indignantly "OF COURSE HE DID!!! If he didn't, he would have called."
We hung up the phone. 5 minutes later, I called back. "Isn't there someone you can ask, what is going on?"
Apparently, the only way you can find out, is to call the airport. Which is stupid, since my husband was actually AT THE AIRPORT. Why should he have had to CALL THE AIRPORT. But...this is Israel...
So, I quickly looked up the number on the internet and with my mind full of thoughts, like "Oh my G-d, for some reason, they have pulled my father to the side and are now searching him. And I know my Dad. After a long journey like this one, he will be overtired and grumpy and probably not very nice to the authorities, which might make it worse." I had thoughts of having to bail him out of jail. My next thought was that perhaps his Israeli passport wasn't up to date and they were giving him a hard time because of that.
I got through to someone at the airport who assured me that all passengers from the flight I had quoted had left the baggage area and made it through customs and immigration. Then she said "Are you sure he is coming today?"
Well...the NERVE!!! Like I don't know how to read an itinerary...
"OF COURSE HE IS COMING TODAY. I HAVE THE ITINERARY IN FRONT OF ME AND IT SAYS NOVEMBER 28, 2010. THAT IS TODAY, AM I CORRECT???" I said with a voice slightly raised, like a good Israeli!!!
"Well, you can call the Interior Ministry at the airport and see if there has been a security or immigration issue."
By this time, I had to go and pick up my daughter from preschool, so I hung up the phone, furious with this idiot of a woman who apparently has no idea who I am.
But her suggestion that I had the wrong day left a nagging feeling inside my head. What if she was right?
I got home and checked the itinerary. This is what it looks like:
EDMONTON/INTL TORONTO AIR CANADA 106 V 28 NOV 10 800A 135P OK
ARRIVES TERMINAL -1
NONSTOP FOOD TO PURCHASE FLYING TIME- 3:35
EQUIPMENT-E90
FREQUENT FLYER -AC 111239513 SEAT-16D
TORONTO TEL AVIV AIR CANADA 84 V 28 NOV 10 520P 1115A OKDEPARTS TERMINAL -1
ARRIVES TERMINAL -3
NONSTOP BREAKFAST-MEAL ARRIVE-29 NOV FLYING TIME-10:55
EQUIPMENT-BOEING 767-300
Now check out the first line of the second paragraph. That's the only part I read. Because the only part that was important to me was when he was arriving. It says 28 Nov 10 520 P 1115A. Which means arrival is at 11:15 am. I didn't bother to read the whole thing, which would have saved my husband a lot of trouble. And money for that matter. There is absolutely NO WAY that anyone can leave the Prairies in Canada at 8 am Canadian time and be in Israel at 11:15 our time ON THE SAME DAY!!!!
Sheepishly, I called my husband, told him my mistake and gave him my permission to come home.
NOW! Here's the amazing part. Even though he has to do this all over tomorrow morning, he came home, totally not even furious with me. Then, he even drove me and the girls to Efrat, some 20 minutes away, for pizza and then grocery shopping. Without a cross word or complaint.
I think my husband is a Tzaddik. Or, for you non Hebrew speakers - a Saint.
Perhaps tomorrow, my Father will actually be here. Who knows? Maybe he's not coming till Thursday!
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Control
I have control issues. I know that may come as a shock to those of you who know me (like my parents, who I think are the only ones who read this blog anyway...). However, it is true. I have control issues. Just ask my parents. Well. You won't have to, because they will comment on this entry and confirm this.
This past week has been a lesson from the powers that be that I am not in control of much and how to accept it gracefully.
I don't like to be confronted with my inability to control people, places and things. Somewhere inside of me, I truly believe that if people would only listen to me and do exactly as I say, we all would be happier. Both you AND me!!!
It doesn't help that I am a Leo. Once I read a description of a leo. It said "You can always tell a Leo. They will be the ones at a dinner party who tell the hostess that the food was good but would probably be better if they just did such and such. And they will be right." So even the stars say that I know better. It's hard to fight against the stars...
So it's not my fault that I have control issues.
The other reason that I think that I have control issues, is because, in my opinion, both of my parents have control issues. They will deny this. Watch.
Neither of my parents do very well working for other people. They almost always come into conflict with other people at work, especially those who have authority over them. They do best when they are self employed.
I have pretty much been self employed my whole life. Except for a couple of stints working at restaurants. Which never went over very well. I was not a good waitress. So, I always went back to my old stand by. Childcare. It is something I can do on my own and nobody tells me what to do through out the day. It works for me.
I think it is also one of the reasons I opted for stand up as opposed to acting. In stand up, you are the writer, director, agent, producer, star.
I gravitated toward what I am a natural for.
Well, I am not so sure that the work thing is a problem with wanting to be in control or a problem with authority. It could be either, it could be both.
Either way, my opinion is that it isn't my fault. It is bad genes and being born under a bossy star sign.
I can't help it. I am bossy and controlling. If you don't like it, too bad!
This past week has been a lesson from the powers that be that I am not in control of much and how to accept it gracefully.
I don't like to be confronted with my inability to control people, places and things. Somewhere inside of me, I truly believe that if people would only listen to me and do exactly as I say, we all would be happier. Both you AND me!!!
It doesn't help that I am a Leo. Once I read a description of a leo. It said "You can always tell a Leo. They will be the ones at a dinner party who tell the hostess that the food was good but would probably be better if they just did such and such. And they will be right." So even the stars say that I know better. It's hard to fight against the stars...
So it's not my fault that I have control issues.
The other reason that I think that I have control issues, is because, in my opinion, both of my parents have control issues. They will deny this. Watch.
Neither of my parents do very well working for other people. They almost always come into conflict with other people at work, especially those who have authority over them. They do best when they are self employed.
I have pretty much been self employed my whole life. Except for a couple of stints working at restaurants. Which never went over very well. I was not a good waitress. So, I always went back to my old stand by. Childcare. It is something I can do on my own and nobody tells me what to do through out the day. It works for me.
I think it is also one of the reasons I opted for stand up as opposed to acting. In stand up, you are the writer, director, agent, producer, star.
I gravitated toward what I am a natural for.
Well, I am not so sure that the work thing is a problem with wanting to be in control or a problem with authority. It could be either, it could be both.
Either way, my opinion is that it isn't my fault. It is bad genes and being born under a bossy star sign.
I can't help it. I am bossy and controlling. If you don't like it, too bad!
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Bathing
I never thought that I would come to relish bathing as much as I have since I became a mother.
For me, bathing is like cleaning the kitchen floor. It gets done if I have the time and energy. And I am pretty sure that my kitchen floor gets mopped more often than I take a shower.
This past summer, we were between houses, as we had to leave our previous place at the end of June and our new place was only available on the first of August. Since David's father had passed away in June, his house in Haifa was empty. So we packed up the family and moved there. David left shortly after for China together with Shmuel and I was a month alone in Haifa, with the girls. Haifa has horrible weather. Because it is on the water, it is humid as hell. If one walks outside for two seconds, sweat develops and rolls down your body, like you are a human shower. It is terrible. I hate humidity.
So there we were, in David's childhood home, which does not come equipped with a bathtub. The only shower is stuck onto the wall of the bathroom and is not encased or separated from the rest of the bathroom. At the end of the day, when I needed to give the girls a shower, I would get in with them and the three of us would shower together. I realized after about a week, that it was probably the most I had showered in three years, since I gave birth to Chaya.
Usually, at home, I get busy. I go about my day, then the girls get a shower or bath, as does Shmuel and then by the time the three of them have been put in bed and then gotten up about 65 times for water, another story, pee, poo, a last minute snack and finally asleep, I collapse onto the sofa and have barely enough energy to make it to my bed. So a shower, although seemingly a nice idea, is just that, a nice idea. I don't have the energy left to walk another few steps and do what one needs to do in order to take a shower.
I really never thought that taking a shower would become a task where the amount of energy needed in order to do so would become too much for me.
Add to that, that in Israel, the hot water is solar heated. In the winter, in order to take a shower or bath, one must plan ahead. It takes about an hour to heat up enough water for a good bath, so I favor taking a shower before dark in order to maximise the hot water. However, taking a shower in the daytime, with small children is a juggling act. I have gone days without a shower. And then, all of a sudden, I raise my arms and think "Oh crap, I really need a shower." Because, if you can smell your own body odor, it really means that you are a disgusting pig who needs to bathe.
In Israel, however, body odor seems to be common. Especially in the summer. Because the heat is so atrocious, it is impossible not to sweat, humidity or desert, doesn't matter. And no deoderant works well enough to prevent the odor. Believe me, I know, I have tried. As a result, in the summer, it is easy to get away with not taking a shower. The winter, however, calls your bluff.
Last night, I was in the shower and I thought, "Wow, this is so nice, to take a shower before bed. I won't have to do it in the morning. The house is quiet, the kids are sleeping and I am clean! Good for me!!!" My second thought was "That is so weird Amanda. You shouldn't feel as if you have climbed Mount Everest just because you took a shower." But I did. I felt like I had secured peace between Israel and Palestine. Accomplished this impossible but world changing feat.
I almost called CNN, but my rational voice took over that said "You need to get out more darling." So I settled for putting on clean pajamas and cuddling under my duvet and drifting off to sleep, dreaming that I had won the Nobel Peace Prize for being an advocate for cleanliness.
For me, bathing is like cleaning the kitchen floor. It gets done if I have the time and energy. And I am pretty sure that my kitchen floor gets mopped more often than I take a shower.
This past summer, we were between houses, as we had to leave our previous place at the end of June and our new place was only available on the first of August. Since David's father had passed away in June, his house in Haifa was empty. So we packed up the family and moved there. David left shortly after for China together with Shmuel and I was a month alone in Haifa, with the girls. Haifa has horrible weather. Because it is on the water, it is humid as hell. If one walks outside for two seconds, sweat develops and rolls down your body, like you are a human shower. It is terrible. I hate humidity.
So there we were, in David's childhood home, which does not come equipped with a bathtub. The only shower is stuck onto the wall of the bathroom and is not encased or separated from the rest of the bathroom. At the end of the day, when I needed to give the girls a shower, I would get in with them and the three of us would shower together. I realized after about a week, that it was probably the most I had showered in three years, since I gave birth to Chaya.
Usually, at home, I get busy. I go about my day, then the girls get a shower or bath, as does Shmuel and then by the time the three of them have been put in bed and then gotten up about 65 times for water, another story, pee, poo, a last minute snack and finally asleep, I collapse onto the sofa and have barely enough energy to make it to my bed. So a shower, although seemingly a nice idea, is just that, a nice idea. I don't have the energy left to walk another few steps and do what one needs to do in order to take a shower.
I really never thought that taking a shower would become a task where the amount of energy needed in order to do so would become too much for me.
Add to that, that in Israel, the hot water is solar heated. In the winter, in order to take a shower or bath, one must plan ahead. It takes about an hour to heat up enough water for a good bath, so I favor taking a shower before dark in order to maximise the hot water. However, taking a shower in the daytime, with small children is a juggling act. I have gone days without a shower. And then, all of a sudden, I raise my arms and think "Oh crap, I really need a shower." Because, if you can smell your own body odor, it really means that you are a disgusting pig who needs to bathe.
In Israel, however, body odor seems to be common. Especially in the summer. Because the heat is so atrocious, it is impossible not to sweat, humidity or desert, doesn't matter. And no deoderant works well enough to prevent the odor. Believe me, I know, I have tried. As a result, in the summer, it is easy to get away with not taking a shower. The winter, however, calls your bluff.
Last night, I was in the shower and I thought, "Wow, this is so nice, to take a shower before bed. I won't have to do it in the morning. The house is quiet, the kids are sleeping and I am clean! Good for me!!!" My second thought was "That is so weird Amanda. You shouldn't feel as if you have climbed Mount Everest just because you took a shower." But I did. I felt like I had secured peace between Israel and Palestine. Accomplished this impossible but world changing feat.
I almost called CNN, but my rational voice took over that said "You need to get out more darling." So I settled for putting on clean pajamas and cuddling under my duvet and drifting off to sleep, dreaming that I had won the Nobel Peace Prize for being an advocate for cleanliness.
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
One year old observations
I haven't had an inspiration as to a topic that I would like to blog about. I am too tired at night to sit down and type away and too busy during the day taking care of children and cleaning the kitchen. I sweep the floor in my kitchen about 35 times a day and do dishes about 70 times a day. I had all these great plans when I thought of having a daycare in my home, as to what I would do with the kids, how to be creative and teach them all sorts of brilliant things, so that when they became a Nobel Peace Prize winner, they would credit me with giving them a head start in life. But then I got all one year old kids and remembered that Obama won the Peace Prize last - for doing nothing. So basically, the children arrive, they eat, we go out to play, they eat again, they sleep, then eat again, then we go out to pick up the older kids from preschool and we eat again and then we go outside to play again. One year olds do nothing but eat and sleep and play outside. The one time I tried to get them to color, they kept eating the crayons, so I completely ruled out painting after that. I figure that the parents want their kids to come home healthy, so I now do what is in their children's ability at this time. One year olds barely even play with toys. They pick it up, look at it, taste it and then throw it on the ground. I forgot about this. Until now. I was so confused as to what kind of toys I should get the girls when they were one, because they never really seemed interested in anything. They really weren't. They liked to go outside. The world is a huge toy to them. They like to see things, people, animals, swings, sand. They don't give a rats ass about educational, Baby Einstein, Baby Freud crap. Give them dirt to eat any day. Then they are happy as clams.
Anyway, dirt has protein. I think.
Anyway, dirt has protein. I think.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
A funeral
Last Thursday night, a great tragedy occurred.
I came home after taking Chaya to ballet and went to the kitchen, where David was making food for the children. I set my cell phone down on the counter. When I came back to get get it, I realized that there had been water on the counter. I don't remember what David was cooking, the details are hazy in my mind. I wiped it off, but it had turned itself off. I opened up the battery case and wiped the water away. Still, no sign of life. I took my phone upstairs and plugged it into the charger, thinking I could revive it. No sign of life. I felt that if my phone just had a night of rest, then, perhaps then, it would have a fighting chance. The next morning, I woke up and turned on my phone. Oh joy, oh happiness, it worked! I was so happy!!! Until I realized that I couldn't make or receive calls. It said "No Network". I tried everything to bring it back to it's full power. But nothing, no amount of CPR worked. So today, I took it to the cellphone company, where my beloved cellphone was admitted to cellphone ER, and after an hour and a half, Dr. Phonedreamy pronounced it beyond repair. There was no chance of survival as it had suffered from damage due to corrosion.
I drowned my cellphone in less than a millimeter of water.
Fortunately, I was able to receive a new cellphone and the financial damage isn't quite as extensive as I was afraid it would be, as I had cellphone life insurance. It's not quite as complete as the one that I had to bury tonight, but I am sure that I will love this new phone, even though I may not love it AS much as I loved my old phone, but perhaps, in a different way.
I am not really sure why i loved the phone so much. I have never been partial to a phone, let alone a cellphone before. I only even got a cellphone for the first time in Israel last year. And Israel is a cell phone country. Most people have one, if not two phones at the same time. Everywhere you go, when you are asked for your phone number, they mean your cell phone number. And if you say that you don't have one, they are shocked. The conversation will generally look something like this:
Service person: What is your pelephone (cell) number?
Me: I don't have one.
Service person: stares at me with mouth open as they try to digest this information.
After a long pause...No pelephone? At all?
Me: No, but I have a home number.
Service person: What about your husband? Does he have one?
Israeli's just don't understand how you live without a cell phone. When I lived in Ashdod, it was very simple. I didn't have any friends. No friends means no phone calls, so it was completely pointless to pay for a phone that no one was going to phone me on. Then I moved to Tekoa. After I got through the initial fear of doing the hitchiking thing, I realized that it would probably be a useful thing to own in the event that I unintentionally got into trouble. So I got a phone. And since I now have a few friends in Tekoa and actually leave the house everyday at least once, if not more, they can reach me wherever I am and whenever they want.
AND, I have become proficient in text messaging. I have a certain friend who lives in another city in Israel and when I have some odd thoughts, I text them to her so that she can have a comedy break in her day. I won't give examples of those messages, as they shall remain private and are probably only funny to the two of us (gotta love in jokes...).
The other reason that I loved my cell phone, was because when I was buying it and we were checking for available numbers, the girl asked me what my home phone number was. I told her and she did a check and almost had a heart attack when she found that I could have my home number as a cell phone number. She told me she had never successfully been able to do that! So I feel special. Like me and this phone were meant to be. We were besherte. (Besherte = soul mates)
And although I have the new one, that is EXACTLY the same as the old one, I know that there is a difference. You may not, but I do.
Bye bye old cellphone. We had a good life together. May you rest in peace.
I came home after taking Chaya to ballet and went to the kitchen, where David was making food for the children. I set my cell phone down on the counter. When I came back to get get it, I realized that there had been water on the counter. I don't remember what David was cooking, the details are hazy in my mind. I wiped it off, but it had turned itself off. I opened up the battery case and wiped the water away. Still, no sign of life. I took my phone upstairs and plugged it into the charger, thinking I could revive it. No sign of life. I felt that if my phone just had a night of rest, then, perhaps then, it would have a fighting chance. The next morning, I woke up and turned on my phone. Oh joy, oh happiness, it worked! I was so happy!!! Until I realized that I couldn't make or receive calls. It said "No Network". I tried everything to bring it back to it's full power. But nothing, no amount of CPR worked. So today, I took it to the cellphone company, where my beloved cellphone was admitted to cellphone ER, and after an hour and a half, Dr. Phonedreamy pronounced it beyond repair. There was no chance of survival as it had suffered from damage due to corrosion.
I drowned my cellphone in less than a millimeter of water.
Fortunately, I was able to receive a new cellphone and the financial damage isn't quite as extensive as I was afraid it would be, as I had cellphone life insurance. It's not quite as complete as the one that I had to bury tonight, but I am sure that I will love this new phone, even though I may not love it AS much as I loved my old phone, but perhaps, in a different way.
I am not really sure why i loved the phone so much. I have never been partial to a phone, let alone a cellphone before. I only even got a cellphone for the first time in Israel last year. And Israel is a cell phone country. Most people have one, if not two phones at the same time. Everywhere you go, when you are asked for your phone number, they mean your cell phone number. And if you say that you don't have one, they are shocked. The conversation will generally look something like this:
Service person: What is your pelephone (cell) number?
Me: I don't have one.
Service person: stares at me with mouth open as they try to digest this information.
After a long pause...No pelephone? At all?
Me: No, but I have a home number.
Service person: What about your husband? Does he have one?
Israeli's just don't understand how you live without a cell phone. When I lived in Ashdod, it was very simple. I didn't have any friends. No friends means no phone calls, so it was completely pointless to pay for a phone that no one was going to phone me on. Then I moved to Tekoa. After I got through the initial fear of doing the hitchiking thing, I realized that it would probably be a useful thing to own in the event that I unintentionally got into trouble. So I got a phone. And since I now have a few friends in Tekoa and actually leave the house everyday at least once, if not more, they can reach me wherever I am and whenever they want.
AND, I have become proficient in text messaging. I have a certain friend who lives in another city in Israel and when I have some odd thoughts, I text them to her so that she can have a comedy break in her day. I won't give examples of those messages, as they shall remain private and are probably only funny to the two of us (gotta love in jokes...).
The other reason that I loved my cell phone, was because when I was buying it and we were checking for available numbers, the girl asked me what my home phone number was. I told her and she did a check and almost had a heart attack when she found that I could have my home number as a cell phone number. She told me she had never successfully been able to do that! So I feel special. Like me and this phone were meant to be. We were besherte. (Besherte = soul mates)
And although I have the new one, that is EXACTLY the same as the old one, I know that there is a difference. You may not, but I do.
Bye bye old cellphone. We had a good life together. May you rest in peace.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Thoughts on Motherhood
I have been contemplating the reasons that people have for procreating. I know that in Judaism, it is a Torah commandment. At least for men. So there is certainly the religious aspect. But what about for those who are not religious? Is "be fruitful and multiply" really a valid reason for them, since they don't believe in religion anyway?
My Dad thinks that people who don't have children are selfish, but I think that people who have children for the wrong reasons are selfish. But then again, I haven't fully defined what I think the right reasons are. I know that I think that having children just as an extension of yourself is what I would consider a wrong reason. Perhaps carrying on your blood line is a right reason. If you like your bloodline, that is.
I know some people who don't have children yet. And who have expressed a desire to have children. But I am not sure that anyone who doesn't have children can fully understand what they are getting themselves into.
I find that it is increasingly difficult to describe exactly what it feels like to BE pregnant. I wasn't one of those overall wearing, wheatgrass drinking glowing mother's to be. I was tired and cranky and angry with the world. I do, however, recognize, that I was suffering a lot of external stress that took away from the joy of pregnancy.
I do remember thinking, though, after Chaya's birth "Why didn't anyone tell me it was going to be like that?" I felt like all the women who had birthed a child were in on a conspiracy. It was like they would only tell the good parts and leave out all the gross parts, because if they described them everything in detail, no woman would ever consciously CHOOSE to have a baby. At least not through natural childbirth. C section, perhaps. I hear the recovery time is difficult, but an elected c section might be preferable. AND you get a few more days in the hospital, with a nursery to take care of your baby when you want to sleep and food cooked for you.
I remember with Chaya, that the 3 days in the hospital (which you get in Israel) seemed like a holiday to me. I felt like I was in a hotel and I was a little sad to leave. I figured that is why the ultra religious women have a baby every year or so, because they get an all expense paid stay in a hospital for three days. So they have to push a baby through their vagina - no pain, no gain, right?
To be truthful, I can't even tell you what childbirth is like, 3 years on. I have forgotten. I remember it was intense and painful, but it is such a traumatic experience, I think we women block it out. Because, again, if we remembered it, we would never do it again. I do know that I was devastated when I found out I was pregnant again, 3 months after giving birth to Chaya. I hadn't forgotten the pain of her birth yet, so I remember being furious at David. Basically, I went to sleep breastfeeding and woke up pregnant. I am still not exactly sure how it happened.
Then the baby comes home. All of your energy is spent feeding this baby, changing it's diaper and trying to catch up on the sleep that you aren't getting. Day 3 after birth, you spend the whole day crying, but not exactly sure why you feel like crying. I cried after a nurse at the hospital asked me why I didn't speak Hebrew. For some reason, this was absolutely devastating for me. Day 7 it comes back, but now, you are a week without sleep, so you are not only feeling like crying, but you are pissed off at anyone or anything that crosses your path. David forgot to bring a baby seat for the car and I was meeting him later, with the intention of walking to where we were going with the baby. But because he forgot the car seat, when he came back to pick it up, I threw the phone at him. Day 30 is another big day. Now, you are just plain in a rage, because it is now 30 days without more than 2 hours sleep in row. Now you just want to kill someone and I believe divorce was on the table for me at that point. I do believe that if I had had a car, I would have left David. But you can't go far with a baby in a stroller...
As time goes on, baby starts sleeping longer and you eventually start to feel rested. But your life is now changed forever. There is always someone there, demanding something from you. Every single time I sit down, it seems that my children need something. And when a child needs something, they want it NOW!!! So even if you say, I will do it in a second, they repeat what they want over and over and over again until you actually do it.
This morning, I set my alarm for 6 am, thinking that I would take at least half an hour of alone time. But my children seem to have a sixth sense for when mommy wants alone time (see mommy sits down, above) and wake up with me. And then it's hard to be resentful of them for horning in on your alone time when they smile at you with their amazing smiles and say "Mornin' mommy! I waked up!!!"
I realize that I am probably going to have to wake up at 4 in the morning, just to get 30 seconds of alone time. Awake. So, right now, for some reason, I seem to have to go to the bathroom a lot in the night and I can't tell you how much I am enjoying the stillness of the night as I walk blind eyed to the bathroom.
And then there is your "relationship" with your husband. Sarah is a Daddy's girl. Everytime I even attempt to hug him, she horns her way in there and takes over. He is unequivocally hers. In order to be even remotely affectionate with him, I have to wait until the girls aren't looking and do it quickly. I feel like I am 14 again, and don't want my parents to know that I have a boyfriend...
What you learn fast, though, as a parent, is that life is no longer about you. One of the hardest things that I find that my friends with children have, is the dilemma of keeping their own identities. Feeling like one is not just a milking machine, but also keeping you in your life. I mean, it's one thing to read these articles about keeping the romance in your life, within your marriage, but holy cow, keeping you in you???? Feeling like a woman when you have been walking around all day smelling of baby puke and poo because you pulled on yesterday's clothes when you were too tired to create another outfit?
If I find time to myself in a day, it is a miracle. I don't have family close by and not a lot of options for calling other's to take over my kids. So trying to find time alone with my husband is just as impossible. I have compromised. I take time to myself on Fridays, for a couple of hours. And if I can during the day, I do. When the kids are sleeping and I have either finished or am ignoring my household chores. But time with my husband is something we are still trying to figure out. I have heard that there are couples who try to have date night once a month. That's pretty cool. David and I went out for dinner last week. That was nice.
I teach my kids this: Sharing is caring. That's what having kids has taught me. Sharing is Caring. That and caffeine is my friend...
My Dad thinks that people who don't have children are selfish, but I think that people who have children for the wrong reasons are selfish. But then again, I haven't fully defined what I think the right reasons are. I know that I think that having children just as an extension of yourself is what I would consider a wrong reason. Perhaps carrying on your blood line is a right reason. If you like your bloodline, that is.
I know some people who don't have children yet. And who have expressed a desire to have children. But I am not sure that anyone who doesn't have children can fully understand what they are getting themselves into.
I find that it is increasingly difficult to describe exactly what it feels like to BE pregnant. I wasn't one of those overall wearing, wheatgrass drinking glowing mother's to be. I was tired and cranky and angry with the world. I do, however, recognize, that I was suffering a lot of external stress that took away from the joy of pregnancy.
I do remember thinking, though, after Chaya's birth "Why didn't anyone tell me it was going to be like that?" I felt like all the women who had birthed a child were in on a conspiracy. It was like they would only tell the good parts and leave out all the gross parts, because if they described them everything in detail, no woman would ever consciously CHOOSE to have a baby. At least not through natural childbirth. C section, perhaps. I hear the recovery time is difficult, but an elected c section might be preferable. AND you get a few more days in the hospital, with a nursery to take care of your baby when you want to sleep and food cooked for you.
I remember with Chaya, that the 3 days in the hospital (which you get in Israel) seemed like a holiday to me. I felt like I was in a hotel and I was a little sad to leave. I figured that is why the ultra religious women have a baby every year or so, because they get an all expense paid stay in a hospital for three days. So they have to push a baby through their vagina - no pain, no gain, right?
To be truthful, I can't even tell you what childbirth is like, 3 years on. I have forgotten. I remember it was intense and painful, but it is such a traumatic experience, I think we women block it out. Because, again, if we remembered it, we would never do it again. I do know that I was devastated when I found out I was pregnant again, 3 months after giving birth to Chaya. I hadn't forgotten the pain of her birth yet, so I remember being furious at David. Basically, I went to sleep breastfeeding and woke up pregnant. I am still not exactly sure how it happened.
Then the baby comes home. All of your energy is spent feeding this baby, changing it's diaper and trying to catch up on the sleep that you aren't getting. Day 3 after birth, you spend the whole day crying, but not exactly sure why you feel like crying. I cried after a nurse at the hospital asked me why I didn't speak Hebrew. For some reason, this was absolutely devastating for me. Day 7 it comes back, but now, you are a week without sleep, so you are not only feeling like crying, but you are pissed off at anyone or anything that crosses your path. David forgot to bring a baby seat for the car and I was meeting him later, with the intention of walking to where we were going with the baby. But because he forgot the car seat, when he came back to pick it up, I threw the phone at him. Day 30 is another big day. Now, you are just plain in a rage, because it is now 30 days without more than 2 hours sleep in row. Now you just want to kill someone and I believe divorce was on the table for me at that point. I do believe that if I had had a car, I would have left David. But you can't go far with a baby in a stroller...
As time goes on, baby starts sleeping longer and you eventually start to feel rested. But your life is now changed forever. There is always someone there, demanding something from you. Every single time I sit down, it seems that my children need something. And when a child needs something, they want it NOW!!! So even if you say, I will do it in a second, they repeat what they want over and over and over again until you actually do it.
This morning, I set my alarm for 6 am, thinking that I would take at least half an hour of alone time. But my children seem to have a sixth sense for when mommy wants alone time (see mommy sits down, above) and wake up with me. And then it's hard to be resentful of them for horning in on your alone time when they smile at you with their amazing smiles and say "Mornin' mommy! I waked up!!!"
I realize that I am probably going to have to wake up at 4 in the morning, just to get 30 seconds of alone time. Awake. So, right now, for some reason, I seem to have to go to the bathroom a lot in the night and I can't tell you how much I am enjoying the stillness of the night as I walk blind eyed to the bathroom.
And then there is your "relationship" with your husband. Sarah is a Daddy's girl. Everytime I even attempt to hug him, she horns her way in there and takes over. He is unequivocally hers. In order to be even remotely affectionate with him, I have to wait until the girls aren't looking and do it quickly. I feel like I am 14 again, and don't want my parents to know that I have a boyfriend...
What you learn fast, though, as a parent, is that life is no longer about you. One of the hardest things that I find that my friends with children have, is the dilemma of keeping their own identities. Feeling like one is not just a milking machine, but also keeping you in your life. I mean, it's one thing to read these articles about keeping the romance in your life, within your marriage, but holy cow, keeping you in you???? Feeling like a woman when you have been walking around all day smelling of baby puke and poo because you pulled on yesterday's clothes when you were too tired to create another outfit?
If I find time to myself in a day, it is a miracle. I don't have family close by and not a lot of options for calling other's to take over my kids. So trying to find time alone with my husband is just as impossible. I have compromised. I take time to myself on Fridays, for a couple of hours. And if I can during the day, I do. When the kids are sleeping and I have either finished or am ignoring my household chores. But time with my husband is something we are still trying to figure out. I have heard that there are couples who try to have date night once a month. That's pretty cool. David and I went out for dinner last week. That was nice.
I teach my kids this: Sharing is caring. That's what having kids has taught me. Sharing is Caring. That and caffeine is my friend...
Monday, October 18, 2010
Sister Wives
I have been thinking a lot about this whole idea of plural marriage lately. Well, for the last two years, really, since I started watching the show "Big Love". I heard that there is a new reality show in America, featuring a family with multiple wives in it. Called, of course, Sister Wives.
I liked the show Big Love. It was like those women always had someone to back them up and that their Sister wives were their best friends.
We had a guest for shabbos, who was telling us about a family in her neighborhood who are in a plural marriage. She was saying that the women were the ones who recruited the new wives for their husband. There are currently something like 9 wives although at the time, it was just 5 wives. They wanted this woman to be wife number 6. She couldn't understand what the women had to gain from recruiting new wives.
I can tell you exactly.
At this point in time, what I really need more than anything, is a wife. I need someone to help with the cooking and the cleaning, the childcare, the shopping, someone to prepare me a bath when I am tired. Someone to understand when I am tired, or have PMS or on my period. I need a wife.
Many people complain loudly that it is so sexist that it is always the men's right to have more than one wife.
But I know why.
The fact is, that men are a lot of work. Pretty much more work than one woman can handle. We need help. Especially in today's world, where we are expected to work, maintain a house, birth children, breastfeed them and then take on most of the responsibility of their daily lives until they leave the house or we die. I think that we, as women, have bitten off more than we can chew. So since we are expected to do the work of the traditional man, in addition to the work of a traditional woman, we should also be allowed the option of taking a wife. I am telling you, life would be a lot easier if we could share the responsibility.
If I were to choose a wife, I would get one who could cook, clean, hang and fold laundry, take care of my kids. That would free up a lot of my time. In fact, I could, as first wife, make her work in addition to everything else, freeing up my time to pursue any whim that I had at that moment.
It sounds heavenly to me.
But can you imagine the other way around? A woman with more than one husband? If my husband were in the government, there would never be unemployment, because he is a make work project. My house can be perfectly clean, even after a full day of having a daycare in my house, but seconds after he enters the house, it looks like a cyclone hit. And he doesn't even seem to notice that he has left his sock in the hallway or his underwear balled up in the corner of the living room (why he takes them off there, I have no idea). They can stay there for weeks and he won't notice (I know this, as I have tested this theory). Can you imagine having to have two of these? In addition to your children and full time job? It would kill you.
I, as a woman, am happy that there is no culture or religion that I am aware of where a woman can have multiple husbands. We don't need it. It is detrimental to our health.
What we do need, though, is a wife. Or four.
I liked the show Big Love. It was like those women always had someone to back them up and that their Sister wives were their best friends.
We had a guest for shabbos, who was telling us about a family in her neighborhood who are in a plural marriage. She was saying that the women were the ones who recruited the new wives for their husband. There are currently something like 9 wives although at the time, it was just 5 wives. They wanted this woman to be wife number 6. She couldn't understand what the women had to gain from recruiting new wives.
I can tell you exactly.
At this point in time, what I really need more than anything, is a wife. I need someone to help with the cooking and the cleaning, the childcare, the shopping, someone to prepare me a bath when I am tired. Someone to understand when I am tired, or have PMS or on my period. I need a wife.
Many people complain loudly that it is so sexist that it is always the men's right to have more than one wife.
But I know why.
The fact is, that men are a lot of work. Pretty much more work than one woman can handle. We need help. Especially in today's world, where we are expected to work, maintain a house, birth children, breastfeed them and then take on most of the responsibility of their daily lives until they leave the house or we die. I think that we, as women, have bitten off more than we can chew. So since we are expected to do the work of the traditional man, in addition to the work of a traditional woman, we should also be allowed the option of taking a wife. I am telling you, life would be a lot easier if we could share the responsibility.
If I were to choose a wife, I would get one who could cook, clean, hang and fold laundry, take care of my kids. That would free up a lot of my time. In fact, I could, as first wife, make her work in addition to everything else, freeing up my time to pursue any whim that I had at that moment.
It sounds heavenly to me.
But can you imagine the other way around? A woman with more than one husband? If my husband were in the government, there would never be unemployment, because he is a make work project. My house can be perfectly clean, even after a full day of having a daycare in my house, but seconds after he enters the house, it looks like a cyclone hit. And he doesn't even seem to notice that he has left his sock in the hallway or his underwear balled up in the corner of the living room (why he takes them off there, I have no idea). They can stay there for weeks and he won't notice (I know this, as I have tested this theory). Can you imagine having to have two of these? In addition to your children and full time job? It would kill you.
I, as a woman, am happy that there is no culture or religion that I am aware of where a woman can have multiple husbands. We don't need it. It is detrimental to our health.
What we do need, though, is a wife. Or four.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Ballet
When I was a little girl, I wanted to be a ballet dancer. Probably most little girls had the same dream. So, I bugged my mother until she enrolled me in ballet class. Mrs. Lecky's school of dance. It was Saturday mornings, in the basement of an office complex. I must have been about 6 or 7 years old. The problem was, that my mother and stepfather used to like to sleep in on Saturday mornings, so I often missed my class. Ballet just wasn't all I thought it would be - tutu's and buns and beauty.
I was obsessed with princesses when I was a little girl. I loved the Fairy Tales. Cinderella was always my favorite. Something about the overworked and underloved little girl, suddenly turning into the most beautiful girl in the kingdom, being chosen by the handsome Prince, over all other's.
I think I just wanted to feel special and special was not something I felt.
So I quit ballet and moved on to Jazz dancing. It was in the afternoons in the middle of the week, so the only way that I could get there was to go by myself, since my mother and stepfather were working at that hour. I took public transit to get myself to class and then used to stand around with the other girls while they waited for their mother's to come and pick them up. I used to pretend that my mother was coming too. I longed for the kind of mother that spent all of her time devoted to me and my siblings. The kind of mother that served a warm plate of chocolate chip cookies and a glass of milk after school. That baked her own bread and did my hair in intricate hairstyles each morning before school. Who dropped me off and picked me up at school.
My mother didn't have that luxury. She worked long hours and was so tired when she came home that all she could do was plant herself in front of the television to watch the news and/or sleep.
I knew from an early age that when I had kids, it was most important to me to be there with them. I wanted them to have what I didn't have. A stay at home mom, the Beaver Cleaver mommy.
I am not a Beaver Cleaver mommy and I am far from the kind of mother I envisioned for myself, but, every once in awhile, I do things that are Beaver Cleaver mommy like.
Today, I took Chaya to her very first Ballet Class. She told me on the way "Ballet is scary. And if I want to cry, then I just cry." I explained to her that she didn't have to stay at the ballet class and that if she didn't like it, we would just go home, but also that I would be there, in the room with her the whole time. Chaya is much younger than I was when I went to my first dance class, but I think I would have liked to have known that my mother was outside waiting for me. She told her sister, father and brother before we left that she was going to ballet to be pretty.
When the class started, she didn't want to go by herself to the group, so I went with her and after about 5 minutes, I sat down on the sidelines and watched my little girl. She has the added disadvantage that she is not perfectly fluent in Hebrew, but she watched the others and did the best that she could. And when the teacher complimented her, she beamed a smile so bright, it could light up the sky in the darkest night. She did wonderfully.
Is my daughter a future ballerina? I don't know and I don't care. I just want her to have this experience. I want her to be exposed to things from a young age that I always wished that I had had the opportunity to be.
The most beautiful part of it, was watching my daughter walk through her fear and come away with a beatific smile and a happiness that is beyond what any toy from Toys R Us could give her.
I was, and still am, 5 hours later, the proudest mother in the universe. I have so far, raised a little girl who is happy, beautiful and smart. A little girl who knows that her mommy is there for her. Who loves her beyond words.
But I still think she has the potential to be the lead dancer in the most famous ballet company in the world, whatever that may be...I guess I better Internet research it. And learn what a port au bras is.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Airports
I love airports. I get butterflies every time I go to one. It doesn't matter if I am leaving on a trip or just picking someone up. I always have the same nervous "Will I get there in time? Will the flight be on time? Will I see someone famous?" I have never seen anyone famous, at an airport or otherwise. Well, that's not true. Yick, from Degrassi Junior High, used to be the bartender at the bar I frequented in my 20's.
Last week, I went to pick up my friend Jenn at the airport. Ben Gurion airport is an experience. I arrived at the time the plane was due to land and waited an hour and a half for my friend to deplane, get through customs and immigration and collect her luggage.
I was so full of excitement I felt like I was going to pee my pants. Although I think that that had more to do with the fact that I really had to pee but was afraid to use the bathroom in case I missed her exit from the arrivals gate.
There were hundreds of people arriving. In an hour and a half. Hundreds. And Ben Gurion is an incredible place to watch people arrive. You have Orthodox Jews, with their black hats and coats, arriving together with their wives and large families, children clinging to their mother's, babies screaming. You have large tour groups with strange things attached to their clothes, signifying that they belong to the Texas Holyland tours, or some such group. Camera's slung around their necks as they arrive and stare mercilessly at the Black Hat Jews around them. Peering as discreetly as they can at the women with colorful scarves on their heads. Priests and Nuns with their collars and Habits. Muslims. It's a truly international crowd.
I saw a family enter the airport from the arrivals gate, with two small children, when suddenly two women in their late 20's went racing towards them, screaming, clutching bouquets of balloons. The children suddenly grabbed their mother's leg, unsure of what to do with these crazy, screaming women. I watched this and was overcome with laughter and tears.
Thoughts of visiting my family flooded me. I imagined my own girls clinging to me as my sisters and mother ran towards me. But my family doesn't do things like that. We are more reserved.
Husbands and wives deplaning, being met by their spouses.
Watching these reunions, it made me think "I wish my husband was a travelling salesmen or something where he had to travel for work. We would see each other once a month and I would meet him at the airport, where we would rush into each other's arms and be so happy to see one another. If he was never home, we would have a great marriage."
I love airports.
Last week, I went to pick up my friend Jenn at the airport. Ben Gurion airport is an experience. I arrived at the time the plane was due to land and waited an hour and a half for my friend to deplane, get through customs and immigration and collect her luggage.
I was so full of excitement I felt like I was going to pee my pants. Although I think that that had more to do with the fact that I really had to pee but was afraid to use the bathroom in case I missed her exit from the arrivals gate.
There were hundreds of people arriving. In an hour and a half. Hundreds. And Ben Gurion is an incredible place to watch people arrive. You have Orthodox Jews, with their black hats and coats, arriving together with their wives and large families, children clinging to their mother's, babies screaming. You have large tour groups with strange things attached to their clothes, signifying that they belong to the Texas Holyland tours, or some such group. Camera's slung around their necks as they arrive and stare mercilessly at the Black Hat Jews around them. Peering as discreetly as they can at the women with colorful scarves on their heads. Priests and Nuns with their collars and Habits. Muslims. It's a truly international crowd.
I saw a family enter the airport from the arrivals gate, with two small children, when suddenly two women in their late 20's went racing towards them, screaming, clutching bouquets of balloons. The children suddenly grabbed their mother's leg, unsure of what to do with these crazy, screaming women. I watched this and was overcome with laughter and tears.
Thoughts of visiting my family flooded me. I imagined my own girls clinging to me as my sisters and mother ran towards me. But my family doesn't do things like that. We are more reserved.
Husbands and wives deplaning, being met by their spouses.
Watching these reunions, it made me think "I wish my husband was a travelling salesmen or something where he had to travel for work. We would see each other once a month and I would meet him at the airport, where we would rush into each other's arms and be so happy to see one another. If he was never home, we would have a great marriage."
I love airports.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Mahane Yehuda
Mahane Yehuda is a huge market in Jerusalem. I have lived in Israel for almost 5 years, in February and the first time that I came here was about a month ago. I have really not seen the tourist sites in Jerusalem. Jenn's sister in laws boyfriend (do you follow that?) kept asking if I had seen this or that place in Israel and I kept saying no. It's so sad that there is this beautiful country and I haven't seen much of it. So filled with history and I have bypassed most of it.
Today I had booked someone to take care of my daycare for Jenn's visit, but Jenn has travelled north and left yesterday during shabbat, so it was not possible for me to accompany them. Plus, I didn't want to take too many days off of work - it costs me money!!!
So today, I find myself in Jerusalem, at the shuk (market) sitting having a coffee. David has gone to sort out some things at a governmental office and I considered doing some shopping, but I don't want to carry around bags and stuff, plus, I needed to eat and have a coffee. So I will wait for a bit to see how long it will take him and then at 12 I have to be somewhere.
The shuk is amazing. There are people strolling all over, tourists and Israeli's alike.
Here you can pick up good deals. Fruits and vegetables tend to be much cheaper here and you can pick up bargains on clothes as well. I am wearing a Mahane Yehuda special, in fact, that I picked up last week, when I was here with Jenn.
Today I had booked someone to take care of my daycare for Jenn's visit, but Jenn has travelled north and left yesterday during shabbat, so it was not possible for me to accompany them. Plus, I didn't want to take too many days off of work - it costs me money!!!
So today, I find myself in Jerusalem, at the shuk (market) sitting having a coffee. David has gone to sort out some things at a governmental office and I considered doing some shopping, but I don't want to carry around bags and stuff, plus, I needed to eat and have a coffee. So I will wait for a bit to see how long it will take him and then at 12 I have to be somewhere.
The shuk is amazing. There are people strolling all over, tourists and Israeli's alike.
Here you can pick up good deals. Fruits and vegetables tend to be much cheaper here and you can pick up bargains on clothes as well. I am wearing a Mahane Yehuda special, in fact, that I picked up last week, when I was here with Jenn.
Saturday, October 09, 2010
Nail Polish
I bet you thought that I was on a roll and then lost interest in the blog and you would have to wait another 3 years for my next entry.
Fooled you!
My friend came to visit from Canada and I got caught up in the whirlwind tour of Israel. She arrived on Sunday afternoon, after having had a two day delay in getting here. We jetted off (well, more like bussed off) to the Dead Sea. I brought my computer, with the intention of blogging while I was there, but time to myself got away from me.
We arrived at the Dead Sea on Tuesday afternoon, after having spent Monday morning playing in the park here in Tekoa with the kids and then doing an afternoon trip to the Mahane Yehuda Market in Jerusalem. I introduced her to the art of hitchhiking out to the settlements, which is our preferred method of transportation, for us "settlers". The bus only comes every two or three hours, so it is faster to hitchhike. We had a bit of a hard time getting a ride back, since we were travelling with her baby. People didn't want to take the chance of travelling with a baby and we finally found someone who had a baby seat, willing to take her and her baby. The driver didn't have room for me, as she was waiting on her brother and his girlfriend, but luckily I found a ride immediately and actually ended up getting to Tekoa first. We had made a plan to meet at the hitchhikers post in Tekoa and I sat down to wait for her. All of a sudden I got nervous, trying to think back to the woman who picked her up, what she looked like, what her Hebrew sounded like, did she have an accent, etc. As I sat waiting for her, I started imagining the worst. I imagined myself calling my husband, saying "I lost Jenn!" It was terrible. But she arrived safe and sound and actually got a ride all the way to my house, whizzing past me at the hitchhikers post.
She got a good taste of public transportation here, though. The bus ride to the Dead Sea took two hours and we went through all of the tourist spots.
On Wednesday morning she decided to hike up Massada with her sister in law and sister in law's boyfriend, along with her baby. I declined this opportunity. The way I figured it was like this: I was on holiday. Hiking up a mountain sounded suspiciously like exercise. And exercise is work. And I was on holiday. If it involved exertion on my part, I wasn't doing it. So I stayed back.
Instead I went to the spa.
Mmmm....
Alone.
I opted for a facial and much needed pedicure.
The facial was nice, but the pedicure was heavenly. It has been 4 years since I have had a professional pedicure. My feet were in terrible condition. 4 years of running around after small children had taken a toll. And I have the bad habit of picking my nails, both on my feet and hands. Somehow, in the last week or so, my nails have started to grow and I have restrained myself from picking them and managed to grow a little white area where there is supposed to be a white area on your nail.
I feel triumphant.
After almost 12 hours of being on holiday without my children, I was starting to feel like "me" again. Like a person independent of being a mother, or even a wife, for that matter. But here is the thing. A mother can go on vacation, but she is always a mother. How do I know this? Because when the Esthetician asked me which color I wanted to paint my nails, I looked at the bottles, sitting in the box so nicely and thought, "Which color would my girls think is the most fun?" I picked a metallic purple.
And you know what? It was the most fun. Normally I would go for a staid red or light pink, but I decided to be adventurous, for the sake of my children!!!
Even on holiday, I was thinking of them....
Of course, it wasn't until the last morning there, that I started to miss them. It was nice to be away from them for a couple of days. To have my breakfast, lunch and dinner made for me, to not have to do laundry or make a bed (not that I make the beds at home, this is a defect of mine that I am working on...). On the last morning there, however, I was watching my friend play with her son and thought, I miss my girls' hugs. I can't wait to see them!
They were asleep when I got home, but Friday morning, when Chaya woke up, she saw me and gave me a HUGE smile and said "You came back!". I am still her favorite.
It was all worth it!
Fooled you!
My friend came to visit from Canada and I got caught up in the whirlwind tour of Israel. She arrived on Sunday afternoon, after having had a two day delay in getting here. We jetted off (well, more like bussed off) to the Dead Sea. I brought my computer, with the intention of blogging while I was there, but time to myself got away from me.
We arrived at the Dead Sea on Tuesday afternoon, after having spent Monday morning playing in the park here in Tekoa with the kids and then doing an afternoon trip to the Mahane Yehuda Market in Jerusalem. I introduced her to the art of hitchhiking out to the settlements, which is our preferred method of transportation, for us "settlers". The bus only comes every two or three hours, so it is faster to hitchhike. We had a bit of a hard time getting a ride back, since we were travelling with her baby. People didn't want to take the chance of travelling with a baby and we finally found someone who had a baby seat, willing to take her and her baby. The driver didn't have room for me, as she was waiting on her brother and his girlfriend, but luckily I found a ride immediately and actually ended up getting to Tekoa first. We had made a plan to meet at the hitchhikers post in Tekoa and I sat down to wait for her. All of a sudden I got nervous, trying to think back to the woman who picked her up, what she looked like, what her Hebrew sounded like, did she have an accent, etc. As I sat waiting for her, I started imagining the worst. I imagined myself calling my husband, saying "I lost Jenn!" It was terrible. But she arrived safe and sound and actually got a ride all the way to my house, whizzing past me at the hitchhikers post.
She got a good taste of public transportation here, though. The bus ride to the Dead Sea took two hours and we went through all of the tourist spots.
On Wednesday morning she decided to hike up Massada with her sister in law and sister in law's boyfriend, along with her baby. I declined this opportunity. The way I figured it was like this: I was on holiday. Hiking up a mountain sounded suspiciously like exercise. And exercise is work. And I was on holiday. If it involved exertion on my part, I wasn't doing it. So I stayed back.
Instead I went to the spa.
Mmmm....
Alone.
I opted for a facial and much needed pedicure.
The facial was nice, but the pedicure was heavenly. It has been 4 years since I have had a professional pedicure. My feet were in terrible condition. 4 years of running around after small children had taken a toll. And I have the bad habit of picking my nails, both on my feet and hands. Somehow, in the last week or so, my nails have started to grow and I have restrained myself from picking them and managed to grow a little white area where there is supposed to be a white area on your nail.
I feel triumphant.
After almost 12 hours of being on holiday without my children, I was starting to feel like "me" again. Like a person independent of being a mother, or even a wife, for that matter. But here is the thing. A mother can go on vacation, but she is always a mother. How do I know this? Because when the Esthetician asked me which color I wanted to paint my nails, I looked at the bottles, sitting in the box so nicely and thought, "Which color would my girls think is the most fun?" I picked a metallic purple.
And you know what? It was the most fun. Normally I would go for a staid red or light pink, but I decided to be adventurous, for the sake of my children!!!
Even on holiday, I was thinking of them....
Of course, it wasn't until the last morning there, that I started to miss them. It was nice to be away from them for a couple of days. To have my breakfast, lunch and dinner made for me, to not have to do laundry or make a bed (not that I make the beds at home, this is a defect of mine that I am working on...). On the last morning there, however, I was watching my friend play with her son and thought, I miss my girls' hugs. I can't wait to see them!
They were asleep when I got home, but Friday morning, when Chaya woke up, she saw me and gave me a HUGE smile and said "You came back!". I am still her favorite.
It was all worth it!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Laryngitis, Post nasal drip, throat infection and pinworms
The holidays are over.
And what do I have to show for it? A refrigerator that resembles a drug store.
All the kids have been sick over the last week. And all with something different.
Emil had laryngitis. This was by far the most pleasant of all the illnesses. Parents, if you are going to wish for any illness for your child, laryngitis is by far the most pleasant. Because...your child can't talk. Or cry. Or whine or yell or scream or tell you what a horrible parent you are or make those antagonizing sounds that let you know that you, as a parent, are a complete failure at your job.
Laryngitis is simply nature's way of giving you, the parent, a holiday.
I only wish, that next time, all my children will have it at the same time. Oh the quiet I would relish!!!
Sarah was the next one up. I took her to the doctor because her tongue was white and she had been waking up in the middle of the night, coughing as if she couldn't breathe and her breath smelled putrid. As she is prone to thrush, I took her to the doctor, who informed me that she has post nasal drip and is now taking an antihistamine twice a day. Not bad, since the antihistamine makes her sleepy.
Quiet...
Next up, Chaya had a fever and was incredibly grumpy, throwing tantrums every five minutes. I gave her some Tylenol and she woke up the next morning fever free, but complaining that her "bum hurt". So, I did what any mother would do in this situation and armed myself with wipes, thinking that perhaps she just needed a better butt wiping. I made her go into downward dog (our preferred wiping position) and opened it up, at which point I saw a little white thread like thing desperately trying to wiggle it's way back toward her anus. I went to war with this little worm and while it was fast, I do believe that I fought the worm and I won.
I then proceeded to freak out, as I had a friend coming with her two children for a visit. What do I do? Do I warn her that my kid has worms? And the doctor had already been on the yishuv and I didn't know if the nurse would be in and since it was the day before Simchat Torah, I wasn't sure if the doctor would be back and how was I going to get the worm killing medicine. Fortunately, the doctor has a pager, which I used and he directed me to the nurse, who was in the office that evening and I was able to start Chaya on a round of Vormex. It's probably called in English, Wormex. I did inform my friend and although she has only been in Israel 3 years, she was thoroughly blase about the whole thing.
Blase about the whole worm thing. Very typical Israeli attitude, while those of us from North America freak out about things like pin worms and lice, Israeli's just say "Ahh...worms, don't worry about it, they come from the sand. Nothing you can do about it. Get used to it."
I just don't get it. And the blase attitude, quite frankly, pisses me off. Do you know how much extra work it creates for me? Worms and lice both entail a good, thorough cleaning. Of both children and house. It means washing sheets, blankets, pillows, pillow cases, toys, stuffed toys, vacuuming couches. Like I don't have better things to do with my time than clean?
And here's the thing that really pisses me off. There is no policy within the schools that says if your child has a communicable condition, they must be kept home from school, because, get this....IT'S ILLEGAL to make such a policy!!! Seriously. ILLEGAL.
A lot of people in my yishuv don't like to use the pesticide sprays on their kids' hair when they have lice. They prefer the natural tea tree oil and combing it out cure. They don't like to use the medicine for worms, they prefer to go for a "tipul" (treatment) from a naturopath.
I am all for naturopathic treatment, if that is what you choose to do. Go for it. Tea tree yourself out. BUT DON'T SEND YOUR KID TO SCHOOL UNTIL THE CONDITION IS GONE!!!! WHY SHOULD ME AND MY KID HAVE TO SUFFER TOO? I've got news for all of you natural medicine, whole wheat eating, brown sugar toting mom's out there. MISERY DOES NOT LOVE COMPANY!!!! We are not going to start a My kid has lice, who wants to get together and compare natural lice removal methods support group while our kids are at school infecting each other.
All I want is a pest free household. Is that too much to ask?
And by the way, to the mother's in Chaya's school, you owe me 100 shekels.
And what do I have to show for it? A refrigerator that resembles a drug store.
All the kids have been sick over the last week. And all with something different.
Emil had laryngitis. This was by far the most pleasant of all the illnesses. Parents, if you are going to wish for any illness for your child, laryngitis is by far the most pleasant. Because...your child can't talk. Or cry. Or whine or yell or scream or tell you what a horrible parent you are or make those antagonizing sounds that let you know that you, as a parent, are a complete failure at your job.
Laryngitis is simply nature's way of giving you, the parent, a holiday.
I only wish, that next time, all my children will have it at the same time. Oh the quiet I would relish!!!
Sarah was the next one up. I took her to the doctor because her tongue was white and she had been waking up in the middle of the night, coughing as if she couldn't breathe and her breath smelled putrid. As she is prone to thrush, I took her to the doctor, who informed me that she has post nasal drip and is now taking an antihistamine twice a day. Not bad, since the antihistamine makes her sleepy.
Quiet...
Next up, Chaya had a fever and was incredibly grumpy, throwing tantrums every five minutes. I gave her some Tylenol and she woke up the next morning fever free, but complaining that her "bum hurt". So, I did what any mother would do in this situation and armed myself with wipes, thinking that perhaps she just needed a better butt wiping. I made her go into downward dog (our preferred wiping position) and opened it up, at which point I saw a little white thread like thing desperately trying to wiggle it's way back toward her anus. I went to war with this little worm and while it was fast, I do believe that I fought the worm and I won.
I then proceeded to freak out, as I had a friend coming with her two children for a visit. What do I do? Do I warn her that my kid has worms? And the doctor had already been on the yishuv and I didn't know if the nurse would be in and since it was the day before Simchat Torah, I wasn't sure if the doctor would be back and how was I going to get the worm killing medicine. Fortunately, the doctor has a pager, which I used and he directed me to the nurse, who was in the office that evening and I was able to start Chaya on a round of Vormex. It's probably called in English, Wormex. I did inform my friend and although she has only been in Israel 3 years, she was thoroughly blase about the whole thing.
Blase about the whole worm thing. Very typical Israeli attitude, while those of us from North America freak out about things like pin worms and lice, Israeli's just say "Ahh...worms, don't worry about it, they come from the sand. Nothing you can do about it. Get used to it."
I just don't get it. And the blase attitude, quite frankly, pisses me off. Do you know how much extra work it creates for me? Worms and lice both entail a good, thorough cleaning. Of both children and house. It means washing sheets, blankets, pillows, pillow cases, toys, stuffed toys, vacuuming couches. Like I don't have better things to do with my time than clean?
And here's the thing that really pisses me off. There is no policy within the schools that says if your child has a communicable condition, they must be kept home from school, because, get this....IT'S ILLEGAL to make such a policy!!! Seriously. ILLEGAL.
A lot of people in my yishuv don't like to use the pesticide sprays on their kids' hair when they have lice. They prefer the natural tea tree oil and combing it out cure. They don't like to use the medicine for worms, they prefer to go for a "tipul" (treatment) from a naturopath.
I am all for naturopathic treatment, if that is what you choose to do. Go for it. Tea tree yourself out. BUT DON'T SEND YOUR KID TO SCHOOL UNTIL THE CONDITION IS GONE!!!! WHY SHOULD ME AND MY KID HAVE TO SUFFER TOO? I've got news for all of you natural medicine, whole wheat eating, brown sugar toting mom's out there. MISERY DOES NOT LOVE COMPANY!!!! We are not going to start a My kid has lice, who wants to get together and compare natural lice removal methods support group while our kids are at school infecting each other.
All I want is a pest free household. Is that too much to ask?
And by the way, to the mother's in Chaya's school, you owe me 100 shekels.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
3 years and two kids later...
Here it is, 3 years later and I can't believe this blog hasn't been deleted, by the "powers that be" out in blogland. I never closed this blog, because I had the intention of going back and printing out the entries, since they chronicle my pregnancy with Chaya and her first months here on earth. But I never got around to it.
"Not getting around to it" has spawned my new favorite saying, "I'll get there". After Sarah was born, I couldn't understand why I couldn't get to everything. Two young children make life chaotic. The first year of Sarah's life, it was like I was doing a juggling act. Babies wake up, put the smallest one to sleep, just as she wakes up, the other one needs to sleep, she wakes up, the little one goes back to sleep. We barely left the house in her first year. And I was EXHAUSTED!!!
Now that they are 2 and 3, along with Emil, who is 9, my mantra is just that: "I'll get there". Sometimes I do and sometimes I don't.
Usually, if I don't, it is because I have forgotten to write it down.
I have never been a big list person. Lists are for organized people. I like organized people. A lot. I find them an interesting species. They make all these lists and actually do the things on the lists and cross them off. Sometimes I make lists of the things I did yesterday, then make a big checkmark next to them and hang them on the fridge. That way I feel like an organized person. And when people come over, they think "Wow! She's really organized. I feel so inadequate next to her."
My husband thinks that I am organized. Because I am, compared to him. Yesterday, he asked me if I had seen his belt. He asked me this the day before as well. "No, I haven't seen your belt honey, just like I didn't see it yesterday either. But if you took it off and put it in your closet,instead of some strange place like next to the tv, you would probably be able to find it today."
Needless to say, he didn't like that answer.
So, compared to him, I am organized. I put my dirty clothes in a pile on the floor in our room and then when it bothers me enough, I "get there" and bring it downstairs to the dirty clothes hamper next to the washing machine.
That reminds me.
Things to do:
Bring clothes to the hamper on my next trip downstairs.
Welcome back to my blog!
Amanda
"Not getting around to it" has spawned my new favorite saying, "I'll get there". After Sarah was born, I couldn't understand why I couldn't get to everything. Two young children make life chaotic. The first year of Sarah's life, it was like I was doing a juggling act. Babies wake up, put the smallest one to sleep, just as she wakes up, the other one needs to sleep, she wakes up, the little one goes back to sleep. We barely left the house in her first year. And I was EXHAUSTED!!!
Now that they are 2 and 3, along with Emil, who is 9, my mantra is just that: "I'll get there". Sometimes I do and sometimes I don't.
Usually, if I don't, it is because I have forgotten to write it down.
I have never been a big list person. Lists are for organized people. I like organized people. A lot. I find them an interesting species. They make all these lists and actually do the things on the lists and cross them off. Sometimes I make lists of the things I did yesterday, then make a big checkmark next to them and hang them on the fridge. That way I feel like an organized person. And when people come over, they think "Wow! She's really organized. I feel so inadequate next to her."
My husband thinks that I am organized. Because I am, compared to him. Yesterday, he asked me if I had seen his belt. He asked me this the day before as well. "No, I haven't seen your belt honey, just like I didn't see it yesterday either. But if you took it off and put it in your closet,instead of some strange place like next to the tv, you would probably be able to find it today."
Needless to say, he didn't like that answer.
So, compared to him, I am organized. I put my dirty clothes in a pile on the floor in our room and then when it bothers me enough, I "get there" and bring it downstairs to the dirty clothes hamper next to the washing machine.
That reminds me.
Things to do:
Bring clothes to the hamper on my next trip downstairs.
Welcome back to my blog!
Amanda
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